A sort of survivors guilt, I suppose...

As a solution to various problems you may encounter upon the way, let me suggest this: Make Good Art. It's very simple. But it seems to work.
Life fallen apart? Make good art. True love ran off with the milkman? Make good art. Bank foreclosing? Make good art. - Neil Gaiman

To which I'll add: "A third of your department laid off with no warning because the Filipinos are cheaper? Make good art."

*Sigh.* Rough night. Well, at least it wasn't me making anyone cry at the department meeting this time. Now if you'll excuse me, I'm off to finish the novel, listen to some Nick Drake, and have some wine. Maybe not in that order.